2019-05-25_15-59-02 LOUD BALL SMASHING. Song from front room with "GET OUT" as part of lyrics. 2019-05-25_16-22-51 Forced to explain what i meant by "DREAD" getting any email that i got accepted (probably changed their minds etc) to the Wonder Research job. First of all i still HAVE NOT RECEIVED ANY SUCH EMAIL as of yet. Secondly, based from experience, companies or people who GIVE ME A BIG COME ON USUALLY or ALMOST ALWAYS LET ME DOWN at the DROP of a HAT. But i was willing to give this one the benefit of a doubt and due to the UNUSUAL CIRCUMSTANCES that i got acquainted with them. So i DREAD the possibility that they would indeed send an email to reverse their previous verdict JUST SO THEY COULD DO IT TO ME ALL OVER AGAIN (and they will accuse me of WANTING TO HURT MYSELF thats why i KEEP GIVING them SECOND CHANCES.) I actually LEARNED THE CRUEL PART from the local recruiters, co-workers, and a previous online job run by the same. That's what ...